Would you wait for me?

 

Hello love,

It is spring again! a new beginning, a new start and perhaps a new depression have started. Why does it feel so hard to be yourself? To keep wishing for something else...something better than yourself. Why am I so lacking? Why can't I be like her/him?...Why?Why?Why?

-I know that the pressure should push me to grow, but it doesn't feel good...No, it is sure as hell doesn't feel good!

-Then why...why did I decided that this revolution is necessary?

....Because my soul is sick of being afraid, of being scared and of being the "second best"

 

Selfies :)

 

 

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Random update

 

-Making my first beef stroganoff. 

-Easter egg break off to find a white chocolate duck! So cute!

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A mini photoshoot with Nikky

 



- I missed being at peace! I'm constantly striving for perfection. I'm afraid...afraid that once I stop...I will lost the definition of who I am...or at least what people think I am

XOXO

Charlotte

Easter Review & New haircut

Hello everyone, hehe I'm so sorry for not updating yesterday like i'm promise I'll but hey only one day later ^^. Well for easter I got this:

~yeah i know, a lonely egg with a bunch of hershey underneath(which I use the wrapper to make little crane)? At first I was like "is our family going bankcrupt or something?" but don't you worry there's money in that tiny yellow egg there *weeee* XD. So happy!!!!and then i got this:

~Yup a remote control car from my sister's bf. My mom was like "great she plays barbie when she was little and now she play remote control car?" lolz, i love it though, it so noisy and my dogs chase it around in circle XD.

~Yup i got a haircut yesterday too, feel a lot lighter but my hairstylist cut it way too short T_T. Oh well I live with it. In the second pic you can see all the layers XD. *cover my face because i'm too hyper looking XD*

~lolz my dogs also get their haircut *cost us $100* O_O!!!OMG. They look like tootsie roll walking around now XD.

~In my school today we celebrate M.A.D Week or make a difference week. This year we try to donate as much as possible for the Dalit in India. I bought a t-shirt for support which cost 10 dollars and 2/3 of the money go to the organization. When my life got bad I think of these poor children living in poverty and such bad treatments that I'm thankful for what life I live in. What your story?

~Hmm, the job manager said she call me this week *please pray for me to get this job* ^^. Need money to pay for my car's insurance.

~okay well thank you for your sweet comments again. LOVE!!!

~XOXO Charlotte