Dear life (post 1)

***Note to blogger: This post is different than my normal post. This is my diary of a sort and it's a way that I reflect life ***

~I used to wish for a world without war. Without hate. But then I realized that it was illogical to wish for such things. If there was no war, no hate then we couldn’t put a reason to define the word love and peace anymore. What if the world was an acceptance place? What if everyone couldn’t understand the frowning, the crying and the heartache? Then does it mean there was nothing that could be describe as true happiness?. I was once a person who doesn’t understand or know what true hatreds were. Until recently, that hatred was something far and yet it penetrated deep into my soul. I couldn’t extend my hands to ask for help because I realized that the people around me were the one hating me. What is it that makes them hated me so much? It was an action! A vulnerable one and yet I judged it to be a concise one. Would I change my action? No I would not. But if I could I would ask to be a bit more patience and calm. Why is it so hard to hate on someone rather than love someone? Even your mind tells you it’s immoral to subject a single person to such hatreds, darkness and tears.

~"And then you give up and pose that brave stand. At last, you ask for nothing in return and everything to give. "

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SMILE~~~
I learn how to smile today and consider myself a lucky star. I don’t know when I had forgotten to smile in pictures but it soon becomes a habit and I hide myself from the world. I wish that I realized sooner that a smile mean more than just a good picture, it also mean a creation of happiness.

~There seem to be four phases in my smile

~XOXO Charlotte

* Live update & Australia*

Hello lovely bloggers ^^,

Sorry for not updating for so long. I have been super busy with driving practices and helping mom in her Spanish class. I didn't know that this summer will be fill with tasks and activities that keep my mind so occupied. On the bright side, my aunt move out of the house after some unfortunate quarrels and so the house is once again quiet and a peaceful place to enjoy life lolz. How are you today?

~Here is me w/ the dirty mirror. lolz sorry

~So my sister went to Australia to visit my grandma and some cousins that live there. I really want to tag along next time T_T. She brought home great souvenirs though ^^

~Australian t-shirt, pencil pouch, nougat candies and lots of kangaroos and koala bears keychain lolz

~Last but not least she brought home my belated birthday present which is an Ugg boot. In Colorado, this is something you will need and wear for a whole winter lolz. I have a black one this one is just added to add in the variety of my shoe type during the winter.


~On saturday, we went swimming and having dinner with Nikky and Megan (I didn't take any pictures sorry!). Megan brought over my belated birthday presents as well!
~Hamtaro HAT (she knitted it herself) So talented my dear Megan ^^



~She also knitted the handwarmer for me (with gray and bow). Since silver and bows are my two fav thing in the world lolz


~Pretty neat eh?

~I also received a rice charm necklace. Which you can see the charm said serenity and then my name on the back. It's so pretty and well made.They said something about the tradition began in Turkey. Which is quite interesting.

~Nikky gave me a Forever 21 gift card for my birthday and so I decided to have a shopping haul!

~Needed jean short

~More short

~Skirt and legging

Pink tunic

~These are pretty essential pieces that I figured that I will need for the summer. I think i will a mix and match post next time lolz

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~Australian pictures ^^

~Kangaroos ^^. My sister told me in Australia they sell kangaroo's meat in the market. I was horrified. Why would you eat such a gentle creature like this?Beside only on their continent have this animal so should they help preserve it?tsk tsk

~Koala ^^

The infamous opera house

Bridge

~It's so pretty! I wish I could take the trip as well ^^. My mom said she will take me when I graduated from high school as a special trip. Sigh! Don't we all need a vacation nowaday?

~So have you guys took a vacation yet?If so where and when?Did you guys have fun?

~XOXO Charlotte

*Birthday + shiseido?*

Hello everyone,

~My birthday was on May 23rd but my sister was on vacation and so is most people in my family lolz so we didn't have a big birthday party. Most of my family members just give me money so on the day of my birthday, my friend and I just go shopping. This is somewhat a show and tell kind of thing lolz
1. What I bought for myself:
~Wind chime
~Flip flop
~A thousand splendid sun book *amazing I think I will cried again*
~Girl Got game manga

~The wind chime was really cute in a tiny kit



~Proudly on top of my room
~They also give out "I am loved" pins in different languages. I got some in Hindi, Spanish, Bengali, Chinese, and of course English. My friends tried to find a Vietnamese onefor me but we couldn't find it T_T
~Who doesn't need a pair of new flip flop for the summer?^^
~What people got me?Money and uh....these
~V.S giftcard and Edgar Allen poe tales (I love reading scary stories at night lolz)

~Shiseido lip condition with SPF 10 and a cute jewelry box



With and without shiseido lip conditioner on my lip. My lip is really crack before and then the lip balm really give me that shine and smoothness ^^
Rating: 5/5 ^^

~Earring

~There more I guess coming when people go back from vacation (can't wait lolz) ^^

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Junior Escort
What is a junior escort?

~In my school to be a junior escort you have to be the top 10 of your school based on your G.P.A (grade point average). You can then attend the senior graduation and be in graduation gown yourself leading the senior class to receive their diploma. It was RAINNING on that day!!! Not fun to run back inside!

~It was cold so tight is a must

~The dress I wear under my graduation gown (forever 21)

~We have to go lead the senior class down the steep ramp to their "field" and so no high heel were recommended and so I decide to buy those comfort black flat

~It was indeed an amazing experience and look great on college application lolz ^^

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~Shiseido gift set (I think if you buy two or more skin care item you got this mini set). I choosed the white lucent set (amazing)

~I think this probably last me a long time ^^ ~The weather is really gloomy/rainy nowaday. BUt at least everything is green! AND
~Walle keep on shinning (cousin holding him)

~I am now 17th years old. Hmm! Don't know what today is but I feel extremely lazy since the moment I woke up. *Yawn* I guess I should start applying for scholarship and look for another job now. Lolz. Summer finally started but it didn't feel like it one bit because my aunt family still staying at our house and the house is a zoo cage. Oh well! Happiness take time right?^^. How was your day?Did summer started for you yet?

~XOXO Charlotte

*1 more week + E.L.F haul*

Hello love,
~Well life just got a whole lot better since I'm finish with all my A.P tests but still got normal class to deal with. But it's okay one week and everything will be alright ^^

~My face ^^

~Blow fish face *I know it's annoying but can't help it*
~~The Adorable lace shirt that I got from F21



~So Nikky and I got a haul from E.L.F

~My part

Review:

1. Blush and bronzing brush *** --> not bad for a dollar

2. Foundation brush ***

3. Eyeshadow brush ****--> very soft compare to the other

4. E.L.F studio brush *****--> love this brush so so much. It's so soft and great as a powder brush

5.E.L.F french manicure set ****--> cute

6. E.L.F golden goddess nail polish ***** (picture show below)

7. E.L.F essentials therapeutic conditioning lip palm in strawberry creme **** (cute color/very moisturize) However you might want to have a lip scrub before hand

8. All Over color stick in Pink lemonade *** (it's a pretty nice shimmer but doesn't look like the color swatch in the website at all)

~Overall I'm happy with my haul

~Will ask Nikky to do a review on her haul later

~Her birthday is May 14th. Happy Birthday HONEY!!!!

~The E.L.F nail polish in Golden goddess. I think it would look so much nicer with another color underneath. What u think?

~And I got a new LG phone! with a new phone cover and blue tooth set. What you think?^^

~My friend said it's so me lolz. Whatever that mean

~The aunt family is really getting on our nerves. Time for them to get out and move out! AHHH!

~Guys are strange indeed. There was this boy in my school who I hated since the beginning of the year. He hated me too I believe. But then in strange circumstances we become "friend". And then he start writting good things about me (on comment for school and such) and he become somewhat caring comparing to before. But then awkward glances are given (the one that you catch his glance, he held it and then quickly look away). I have no idea if he like me or not but yeah things are strange and he was asking me who my bf is. Whatever =_=. I really don't feel like entangling myself in some love drama anymore.

~How was ur week lolz?

~XOXO Charlotte